I have always had a problem with the concept — more importantly, the reality — of surrendering. It evoked feelings of inadequacy, loss of control, enslavement and acquiescence to the power of another person or situation. I did not like it — not one bit! Searching the dictionary or thesaurus only added to the upset. Words like yield, concede, capitulate, crumble, cave-in, throw in the towel and forfeit were offered as definitions. None of them eased my sense that abandonment would be wrenching.